I just need to write this down to get it out and move on.
Today started off really well. Normal. Coffee (the BEST cup I've ever had actually. Irish cream coffee with extra soymilk) and lunch was just extraordinary. I went to the gym, had a good workout, came back and poured myself a nice bowl of cinnamon life cereal and then went to the library to study (+ drink more coffee). Then dinner rolled around and for some reason I decided to just eat veggies (bad move on my part) and an apple. So when I got back to the room I was still hungry so I had a bowl of Kashi Go Lean Crunch..a BIG bowl. And ED took over and told me I was overeating and that I'm a terrible person.....and I let him convince me of it. So I went to the gym for a second time (URGH!).
When I got back I was sitting in the lounge and started to get hungry again, so I went up to my room and sat on the floor thinking about what I wanted for TEN MINUTES! I knew what I wanted, but for some reason I was very willing to let ED decide for me. I ended up bargaining with him and ate my oatmeal squares. I still felt like I OVER ATE today, so just to prove it to him I counted ALL of my calories. And you know what?
I ONLY HAD 1500 CALORIES
The reason I'm telling everyone this? To PROVE that ED is LIEING to us. He's full of shit. He tells us things that are NOT true. He makes us feel like crap for eating foods that we aren't used to.
I did all of my counting on www.mypyramid.gov and you know what? I fufilled all of my food groups today. ED is telling me that I am going to get fat but I SIMPLY HAD A GOOD DAY OF EATING. Well, ED is NOT doing this to me again. HEAR THAT ED?!?! I ATE HEALTHY TODAY, AND ENJOYED MY FOOD! AND YOU ARE NO LONGER WELCOME IN MY LIFE!
Every step you take, is a step away from where you used to be. -Brian Chargualaf