Tomorrow marks the 3 year anniversary of my relationship with ED. It's been a rough three years, but I have never felt stronger against him during this time of year.
There are still no pictures in this post, but I carried a little sticky note around with me yesterday and jotted down a few things I wanted to mention on here, because I ALWAYS seem to think of things and then forget when I'm ready to type them! So annoying! =P
1. About the comment my mom made. I know that she was just trying to make me more comfortable, but I guess I just wasn't sure if it was really going to help, or just feed ED. Because when she said it I felt a HUGE weight lifted off of my shoulders, and I could almost hear ED saying "sorry, no sweets for you!". I haven't had any since, even though those little peanut butter cookies with the Hershey Kiss, and my aunts homemade chex mix is my favorite! I think I'm still going to try to challenge myself, but knowing that my mom isn't expecting me to is kind of making it harder. It's very confusing, but thank you so much for your feedback! Hearing my mom say something like that really showed me that she's beginning to understand what I am going through. Usually she is always by the book- I need to eat certain things, gain weight, and everything will be fine. But hearing her say what she did shows me that she is actually listening to what I tell her. Which makes me feel good =]
2. I was at work yesterday, and one of the orders that rang through was for a bagel with cream cheese. I sliced, toasted, and plated it....but put reduced fat cream cheese on the plate by accident. I handed the woman (who was honestly the perfect weight, she was so healthy looking!) the plate, and she looked at the cream cheese, then at me, and asked if she could have the regular one instead. I don't know why this really hit a note for me, but seeing that not everyone is thankful to get RF cream cheese by accident really showed ED that not everyone thinks like me. People eat what they want, and what they think tastes better. So HA ED!
3. I wrote down the word "gym" and don't remember what I was going to say! Ah well. My day today is going to be pretty busy. I'm headed to the gym shortly, then home for lunch, and then I'm working 3-11:30! Oh gosh! At least I'm closing with, ahem, this kid I like. Who happens to be friends with this OTHER kid at work who asked me out on a date yesterday. AHHH so confusing!! Have a great great GREAT Saturday everyone!!