I'm starting to feel myself becoming a little concerned about how this blog is affecting my recovery. I mean, in some ways it has helped tremendous amounts, especially having the support from such amazing, beautiful, and inspiring people! However, I have also realized that although I have conquered many fear foods, I have also become so much more strict with certain things. For example, chips are completely off limits and a sandwich is considered lunch in itself. Also, this thing I have going with peanut butter. I'm not really sure if it's healthy. I mean, I never ate this much peanut butter until I started reading blogs, and now I honestly can't go a day without it! I mean...I guess that's not a terrible thing, but I won't even TOUCH ice cream anymore, and if I don't see something eaten on a blog, then I won't eat it myself.
It's almost as if I've become addicted to nutrition. Like, anything that wouldn't be considered healthy by all of you here, I won't touch. Things that I used to eat ALL the time (cookies, white rice, sunchips, ice cream, etc). And all I do is compare! I know it's ED talking, but I compare everything from workouts to daily eats. (Did I mention I was never THIS hardcore about working out until I started reading blogs).
I guess I just don't know what to do. I'm confused. Maybe it's simply because I'm exhausted right now, but I would appreciate SOME advice.
<3 Love you girlies.