Okay. So. I'm not in the posting mood but I feel the need to share a couple of things with you gals before my DREADED Chem class!
I woke up early to walk to the Cafe and get some java. After doing some blog reading and getting ready I heated myself up a bowl of High Fiber oatmeal-
Eaten with a fork because SHOCKER, we're out of spoons =]
While sitting in my nutrition class I started getting REALLY hungry, so I ate a Kashi soft-baked cereal bar (no pic, sorry!). I was planning on having this between my nutrition class and my music class but I was starving so I gave in.
Well, then something interesting happened in my music class. It happens every now and then, and I think it has something to do with my caffeine intake but I can't be certain (it hasn't happened in a LONG time). I was sitting there, and started to get really jittery and sweaty and my heart started racing. I could NOT sit in that class any more, so I texted my friend who was sitting somewhere in the auditorium and then booked it straight to the dining hall. I find that eating something calms this feeling almost instantly, so after a few minutes I was better.
I grabbed an apple and a tea bag, and had this once I was back at the dorm.
I also had two slices of bread with two tablespoons of peanut butter. I was really frightened, even though I can't be certain it had anything to do with my food intake...because I've been eating well these past few days.
I made a decision.
I dug around through my folders and pulled out my old discharge plan. It's based off of exchanges and I have officially decided to begin following it. I am tired of feeling like I am overeating at night, because I don't eat enough during the day. So I feel like this will give me a certain level of comfort, and structure, that I need in order to succeed throughout recovery. I plan on being 100% honest at my doctors appointment on monday- that means with the nutritionist too.
I'm very ready to begin this. Or rather, to END this. =]