Girls, I have absolutely NO idea how all of you manage school, work, activities, AND this blog! I mean, keeping updated is one thing but updating my own blog on a regular basis?! I feel like it's impossible and I want to apologize now for my absence! I'm trying my hardest!
Due to an OVERLOAD of stories, my article wasn't able to be published today, but Julie said that it should be in tomorrows paper so I'm crossing my fingers! I'm really excited to see if I get contacted by anyone here on campus. I don't really have anyone here at school that I can talk to and really relate to, and of course if I'm able to help them as well I would be just enthralled!
This post is all over the place!!! I guess its just a parallel to my brain right now!
I had a doctors appointment today and it was a good one!! I read an article posted by Jem last week about a girl who died in her sleep due to complications related to her eating disorder, and what was especially terrifying was that she wasn't even at an extremely low weight. Now, I don't want to make this a depressing post or anything, but this really got me to thinking about my life, and what I've made my parents and everyone around me go through. My mom spends so much of her days just worrying herself sick over me, afraid that something is going to happen- especially now that I'm at school. I've lost the last three years of my life to calorie counting and self hate and doctors appointments upon doctors appointments and I've had enough! I get so upset about these things but then forget that there's a solution. Granted, an extremely difficult and LENGTHY solution, but I have decided to officially take action. I cut back my time at the gym (every other day, and shorter workouts), increased my calories (working on spreading it THROUGHOUT the day as opposed to just at night), and tried to keep my mind occupied with other things besides food!
As everyone has probably already read AND commented on, Amy asked all of us to think about the things we loved before ED. To be honest, this took me quite a bit of time to think about but I realized that the one thing that I have always had a passion for is taking care of animals. It's such a simple concept, but there is just something so theraputic about helping them. So I decided to take action (I feel like I should title this post "taking action!") and am going to attend an Equine Club meeting on Thursday. I'm SO excited!
ALSO, tomorrow is my first Yoga Club meeting. I am getting involved and learning to live my love, and Learning to love it at the same time.
I love all of you girls. Pictures WILL be in the next post, I promise <3
P.S. Am I dreaming, or is that last comment on my last post real?