Look at it!!! Front page!
I can't tell you how excited I was to see this! It was actually a bit different than the one I posted on here, but I absolutely LOVED it! Julie did such an amazing job writing this, and incorporating the perfect balance of statistics, quotes, and information about my blog. It's exactly what I was hoping was going to be published. There was even an opinion from an RD who works at the Hospital of Central Connecticut. She said that "I think it's great. I think any type of support system, whether it's family or strangers in an internet blog who are going through the same thing is really helpful." (Kelsey Mangano, RD.) How great is that?!
I've also already been contacted by a few people from my school who read the article and are also suffering from Eating Disorders. I just want to give a shout out to all of the readers who are from UConn- thank you SO much for taking the time to find and read this blog. You can find me on Facebook if you want to talk in a more private atmosphere! Otherwise, please feel free to continue reading this and comment as you please! I love knowing that there are readers out there who may be struggling in the same environment that I am. So, welcome. =)
So, this is the frozen yogurt that I'm chipping away at as we speak.
I did want to touch upon something today that I've read a lot about in random blogs the past few weeks, and that is fear of hunger.
I've read that a good amount of people try to eat a substantial meal so that they don't feel hungry before they are "supposed to" (ie. time for a snack or another meal). Well, I find myself in this predicament once in awhile, but seem to find myself in exactly the OPPOSITE situation more often. I am scared of perpetual fullness. When I feel my stomach getting full, I get scared. I worry that I will never feel hungry again. I'm not really sure where this is coming from, or what I am scared of exactly, but I often eat foods that I know will not leave me feeling full. The problem with this, however, is that in addition to lacking the full-feeling, I also lack the satisfaction-feeling. This causes me to eat until I receive the level of satisfaction that my body is happy with, which often leads to feeling full, and sometimes guilty for overeating. Isn't that funny how my body finds a way to get what it wants?
So my new goal- eat until I am satisfied. Whether this means feeling full or simply feeling content. I need to start eating foods that will nourish my body, instead of eating just to not feel hungry any more.
Today is yet another Dr. day, and I'm a bit nervous. I was kind of "off" the past few days, and I have a feeling it will show. BUT, that doesn't mean I have failed. It just means I need to wake up tomorrow and begin chugging away at recovery once again!!