I AM LOVING TODAY!!!
First of all, after my "larger than normal" breakfast, I indulged (positively!) in a 3 hour nap! Followed by errands to the pharmacy and market, and then lunch at our Organic Dining hall. Now GET THIS GIRLS! Lunch included- a salad with carrots, black beans, pinto beans, and balsamic. A sandwich on wheat with hummus and lettuce. AND one scoop of chocolate + one scoop of vanilla Tofutti Ice Cream!!! HELL YEAH! I wasn't even hungry for the ice cream, but everyone I was with was getting some, and I've never had that brand, and what the hell right?
I feel so IN CONTROL over this. Eating structured meals is making me feel wonderful and free! I never would have imagined...
No pictures, sorry!
I just wanted to let all of you girls know that every single one of your comments brought a smile to my face. I don't mention it often, but every time I get an email saying that I have a new comment, my spirit is lifted just a little more. Each thoughtful comment is appreciated SO much and I could never begin to thank everyone enough for the inspiring words and heartfelt comments that have been left on every single one of my posts. This community means so much to me, and I wish I could do SOMETHING to show you girls how much it really DOES mean to me. So thank you <3
Just as all of you said...today is a new day, and it's a MUCH better day. I decided to challenge myself today. Normally I get caught up with just grazing all day. It's a bad habit that I got into once I began recovery. I'm comfortable with it because I don't get really really hungry, but I never get full either. I also don't take in enough calories throughout the day. So this morning I woke up with a plan. It's simple, but I'm going to eat three GOOD meals, and 3 dense snacks. I almost bailed out on the way back from class this morning, telling myself that I just felt like a granola bar for breakfast, but I was able to separate this (ED) thought from MY thoughts, and waltzed right into the dining hall and plated myself some scrambled eggs, toast, and an apple. With coffee+soymilk of course!! It was delicious...yet I was still hungry. So I had some cottage cheese and felt satisfied. I didn't count calories, or pay attention to serving sizes. I just took what I felt like, and what I was hungry for...and that's that. I can tell today is going to be a MUCH better day than yesterday...
Have a wonderful day everyone!