I just want to start this post by saying that it is a possible trigger, so if you are not completely comfortable reading it, please do not feel obligated.
I know that I said I was going post more pictures of the formal, but once I saw them I wasn't really feeling it. Not only do I look terrible in them (it's not just my low self-esteem talking...I really do!) but I realized that these pictures really highlight a few body parts that remind me that I still have a lot of weight to gain. In fact, this picture in particular scared me a bit-
Now, I'm not sure if this is as bad as I'm making it seem...but I saw this picture and my jaw DROPPED. I was wondering where the hell my arm went?! I became angry at myself for seeing this picture and knowing that I was thinking about eating those stuffed shells all night. WHY was I so concerned about eating a "higher calorie" food when I NEED it?!
I know that I shouldn't be getting upset at myself, especially since I am working towards recovery, but I guess I got more upset at the fact that these pictures could have come out so much better had my arm not looked like this.
I'm sorry for posting this, but it's been bothering me a lot and I just needed to get it out in the open.
Oh...and for all you non-facebook gals who don't already know, I may or may not be in a relationship with this boy:
That's all for this post. I have a snow day but also a LOT of work to do! I love you girls so much...for everything.